There is no back-up plan for God’s plan for my life. But rather than to praise Him, I am filled with rage and at the same time feel a sense of loss and absolute shame. I am flawed and undeserving of His grace. What god can validate such a traumatic action to prove a point? I can’t shake off the turmoil of emotions and despondency that I feel, so I clothe myself in this veil of shame, that hides me from my disgrace.